If you never go, you'll never know - ENGLISH version

or in other words - I CAN’T KEEP CALM - I’m going to Hawaii!

(Extra information: This is an article I wrote for the TraumHawaii community - linked below)

I am looking out of the window - it's snowing. Yes, it's winter but here in the West of North Rhine

Westphalia in Germany quite close to the Dutch border snow is rare. If there is snow then it usualy
thaws away quickly. I don't like winter times. No, that is not completely true: I don't like winter
times over here. The cold temperatures, the moisture, this Yuck weather - I really don't need that and
that's why I get longing every year at this time. California, Florida, Caribbean, etc. - I start thinking
about all those places that are synonymous with nice warm weather. From November until February,
I am mostly in a bad mood because I miss the sun and the light and because I prefere to wear light
clothes. However, this winter it's different. I will fulfill a long cherished dream and right now I am in
the middle of planning. Planning this trip feels like a great adventure awaits me - perhaps the

greatest adventure of my life.

After reading my first few lines, you already suspect that I don't really like winter sports. As long as I

can remember, I love the sun and the sea. Sun, ocean, wind, palm trees and coconuts! So it's no

wonder that I have this dream of someday traveling to Hawai'i. In November this year, I will realize

my dream. I would like to relate how I came to this decision.

In Germany, we have an saying: All roads lead to Rome. For me all roads lead to Hawai'i. For some

years, my life partner and I travel one or two times a year to the Canary Islands. Always same place,

always same hotel on Fuerteventura. We found there a kind of second home where we feel very

comfortable and where we can take a relaxing break from our exhausting everyday life. Not long ago I

told my partner that he would have to travel with me to Hawai'i someday. Maybe when we are retired.

Christmas 2017 the stone began to roll slowly. My partner has four kids: Three boys and a girl who

live with thieir mother but are with him regularly. When we spent the holidays together the 13 years old

daughter committed me to watch Hawaii Five-0 with her. The series was not new to me but I had never

seen a whole episode until then. Quickly I was very impressed and enthusiastic. Okay I have to admit

that it was the handsome leading actor too but also the stories of the individual characters and the

cases they had to solve where so intriguing that my curiosity was aroused. The beautful shots of the

islands reminded me of the old series Magnum P.I. with Tom Selleck and I had loved watching it.

Hawaii Five-0 fans know that the backround story of the characters is complex and so I bought all

available seasons on DVD and started watching the series from the very beginning. Frankly speaking

I muss confess that the McGarrett fever had also seized me. However, I had no idea what else this

would entail.

Through the bonus material on the DVDs, I found out that, much of these filming locations actually

existed and that many information about Hawai'i, culture and traditions were true. By the time I found

out that the Nation of Hawai'i and Bumpy Kanahele really existed, my curiousity became thirst for

knowledge. I began to research and to read about the history of the islands. During my search on

the internet, I came across the wonderful website TraumHawaii and the reading list of Michaela -

called Ela - brought me to the religion and culture of Hawai'i.

It sounds clichéd when I say that theses books changed my life, I know that. But that's exactly how

it is. Ho'oponopono, the Huna teachings, the Aloha Spirit. These topics cracked into my life and I was

overwhelmed because they got so much under my skin. It felt like a revelation. Maybe I was so open-
minded about these topics because I was educated less religiously and I also could never identify with
the Christian religion. In these books I found myself in an unimaginable degree. My feelings and thoughts

were so confused and it felt as if I had opened Pandora's box - in a positive sense. There was definitely

no stopping or turning back - I had to go on, and my partner with me. I often felt sorry for him when it

hit me so much on the emotional level that my tears were running. Especially with the Ho'oponopono,

I realized that I still had to work up a lot of my past. If you don't have a past when you are in your

mid-forties you have done something wrong or not yet lived. Anyway, I went through a kind of process

and I am very grateful that I could discuss with Ela because at times I thought I would literally go crazy.

Dear Ela, at this point please accept my Mahalo nui loa for everything! By the way, I am learning

Hawaiian since December (Duolingo) and I love it!

In my head, the idea gradually formed that this had to have a deeper meaning what had been going
on for weeks in my life and inside me. I realized that I have to go there to find out if this is really the
case. Not at some point, but now! Therefore, I decided that I wanted to do it in 2019 and I asked my
partner to come with me. If his answer had been NO, I would travel without him - this was clear.
However, he said YES and so we started thinking about details. We will start with O'ahu. Due to the
long journey and my extensive to do list, we will spend three weeks there that is probably still not
enough. We have decided to rent a holiday home that is located directly on the beach. In order to be
flexible and independent we take a rental car for the time. Due to our arrival in the late evening, we will
spend the first night in one of the Waikiki Beach hotels. We will arrive in the dark and start the first day
with one of the most beautiful views in the world - that is the plan. The flights, the rental car and the
house are booked and we will start on 1st November. I deliberately chose November because it is
considered a low season.

I want to look around on the Farmer Markets, in Chinatown and on the International Marketplace.
I want to experience a Luau and see the Hula dance. I want to hike on various trails and explore the
beautiful nature around. I want to see Hanauma Bay, waterfalls and rainbows. I want to taste
Shave Ice and Malasadas, Kona Coffee and Hawai'i Cocktails. I want to visit Pearl Harbor and get in
contact with the Locals. I want to swim in the ocean, snorkeling, trying stand up paddling, and so
much more. I am sure we will have a stunning, memorable and great time on O'ahu and therefore I
will record all the impressions and experiences in a travel blog. For me, for my loved ones at home
and anyone who wants to read it.

Everything sounds good so far. Remains to mention that this paradise has also some dark sides. Many
people can't afford an apartment or a house even though they have a job. Therefore they live in tents.
Livelihood is immensely expensive compared to Europe because the islands have to import about
90% of all goods. There are also some interesting non-touristic topics such as the Hawaiian's
reputation for being far more advanced than we are in Europe when it comes to nature conservation
and sustainable land management.

It is definitely going to be insteresting and exciting!

Here in Germany we have a saying: Dreams are made of lather.

I see it different: Dreams have a reason & they give us the opportunity to grow.

(written End of January 2019)

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